I have The One-Minute Writer to thank for this prompt ("Timing"): I had just started dating my first boyfriend when the guy I had been in love with for years finally asked me to be with him. I'm still not sure if that was good or bad timing.
*This is a little rough around the edges - Please be patient with me as I sort through the emotional disaster it seems to be*
The fall of 2007 was a blissful time in my life. I had just started my sophomore year of college, I had met the boy of my dreams, & my life was finally starting to feel like I was in the right place at the right time. This boy, we'll call him Kevin (see "How Writing Saved My Life"), was my whole world. I was completely enraptured & didn't think anything could ever go wrong as long as we were together. He made me laugh, smile, feel beautiful. I was actually, genuinely happy for the first time in a long time.
Sometime in October of that year, I was talking to a good friend of mine - let's call him Josh - whom I had been in love with since I was 13 years old (I am now 21, you do the math). Now, Josh wasn't the type of boy my parents would ever approve of - he was the bad boy. Which is initially what attracted me to him. He was dangerous & off-limits. But we had been close friends for so long & I had always loved him. Before starting my sophomore year I asked Josh if he wanted to be with me & he said no. His reason was that he didn't want to stand in the way of me meeting someone else.
When I was talking to Josh in October, about a month after I started dating Kevin, Josh told me that he had always loved me & wanted to be with me. Instantly I was furious. I wanted to be with him as well, but he said no to me! He had a window of opportunity & he closed it. I couldn't understand why he would tell me this after I had started a relationship with someone different - after I finally found my happiness. But it also reinforced how much I loved him - just as much as my 13-year-old self.
I was so conflicted. I stopped talking to Josh for a while after that. Kevin found out that Josh was proclaiming his love for me & wasn't too thrilled to know he had some competition for my heart. I went from happy to having to convince the boy I loved that I was with him & only him. Josh's proclamation certainly caused some of the wonderful drama that seems to always find a place in my life. So I did everything I could to focus on my relationship with Kevin.
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